Finally today's the last day to enjoy myself at home. Gotta book in at nite later. Been playing games at home and just relaxing for the past few days during my off. Kinda feel energized and i cudnt haf felt so much better now.

enrolled my application for studies on friday. once accepted, i will start sch on oct and graduate on march/april 09. gotta sacrifice alot during work and studies but i tink i can manage that. Just gotta need extra effort.

cant wait to start studying though.

let's do it!

Protect ~ 6:15 pm

*achieved 22yrs of life on earth.

at home blogging away currently, managed to get bday off from my plat sgt. well my body is aching coz i went to gym twice this week. this morning i kinda felt the full effect after doing the routines. after we haf done everything it was already lunchtime. when walking on the way back, the men in my plt was marching back to coy line. anyway today was one of the days we call it STD. nono its no sexual transmitted disease but its sgt's training day. lolx..there's 6 of us specs in weapon plt and today 5 of us went to gym except the duty commander ie. jason.

once at bunk i ate two packets of maggee mee coz im so lazy to go to cookhouse. relax awhile before sleeping. slpt till like around 4+ before getting ready for bookout. relax in the office and most of my men were asking me how come im booking out. told them that i haf to sign a contract later today and most of them didnt buy that. one of them went to the COS table and took a look at my biodata and read out my date of birth loudly in the office. i was like shitz. im sure they planning some evil things now. im hoping there's nothing happening to me tmr when i get back to camp. either i get it on thurs nite or fri morning.

while relaxing in the office, i chanced upon a stapled set of papers. the men asked me to read. its all about their latest squad news that's taking part in the atec cup in about 2-3 weeks time. there's 3 teams participating from my opfor and 1 from hq side. they wrote alot of craps about latest transfers and rumuors. in the army, sometimes i wonder how ppl can write about this type of crap but it was funny enuf. they wrote about my pc who's injured and many teams sought after him and he's available. meanwhile they wrote that i was unhappy in the commander's team and am willing to change team. how crappy can that be? they even wrote opening odds for all the teams to win the atec soccer cup. lolx! and they even wrote that im willing to score an own goal coz of unhappiness. its just funny reading what they wrote. they even made claims that the stories are just for fictional purposes and they do not bear any punishments such as signing extra duties in camp. haha...my weapon men, they're so creative and just so boliao.

later i gotta go to polyclinic for my final appt. after that i shud be going home to rest. if im not wrong they not going to draw any blood this time. time to rest now

Protect ~ 3:03 am

there's a malay wedding beside my block today. the entrance was nice, kompang accompanied by kuda kepang. when i heard the gamelan, i knew there was kuda kepang. so i watched for awhile and went to shit. lolx. just fascinated by kuda kepang, that's all.



the parade is just tmr and hoping that my plt need not go out for stage 1 on tues and wed. planning to take bday off on thurs and if granted i can book out on wed after RO. not gonna celebrate my bday this yr, just chill. maybe i make a big one next yr coz its after army. im left with 2 titles to watch and im absolutely tired.



went for kopi yesterday with usual gang and saw wei jiunn. he was studying there. kinda feel bad disturbing him coz he joined us for the chit-chat session instead of continuing his studies. he's taking part time advanced dip while in the army. how cool is that?



havin 3 days off after this week. supposed to be leave but they converted it to off. fantastic. i can store my leave till i ORD. at the moment i haf at least 10days of leave and 5 days of off. that's like half a month worth of freedom.

Protect ~ 2:47 pm

winz u can collect ur prez when ur free ok? just tell me when u haf the spare time.

dun worry its still safe with me.

booked in just for two parade rehearsals today. wth? after tat booked out and shared cab with kenny and lee. called comfort and they provided us with mercedes cab. the surchage was 4bucks. usually if we called, it wud be 2.5bucks. nvm. 12more weeks to ord. and that's like 8-10 times more of booking in/out after counting off the leave/off. just gif it to them. i cudnt care less now in my unit. rheotically u can say that im hit by the ord bug. borrowed 3 more vcds from my frnd in camp and now i haf loads of shows to watch. just nice that i can spend time at home watching all the titles with my mum and sis. mum's getting plenty of high blood pressure nowadays. im staying home much more now than last time so that maybe i can assist my mum in one way or another.

i dunno if i haf already mentioned this but nevertheless im just gonna write about it. just had a small talk with my mom that day during my meal. told her about my plans after ord. also told her that i dun haf any gf and not intending to find one. prolly not getting married as well. she told me that maybe at around 26-28 i shud be getting married. i told her that how am i supposed to get married without any gf. told her that i might not be marrying and i want to enjoy life. she told me about life's taboos and no i didnt mean about doing those things on her mind. i told her that i wanted to take care of her and my dad. gif them a gd life after what they haf showered me with since i was born. and that is what im planning to do now after i get a job and my degree. i hope to support them when everything's stabled.

was talking to my guys while waiting to rehearse. apparently one of them is going to celebrate his bday next sat. and i unknowingly let the cat out of the bag for mine. and now some of them noe my bday falls on next thurs. i hope nothing really happens on that day. alot of scenarios running thru my head just now. they can do almost anything. im dead if they haf some weird ideas in their mind.

watched two titles since i reached home. im half-dead now. tink i get some rest for my eyes now.gotta continue again tmr :)

Protect ~ 11:38 pm

Few more days to my bday! not looking forward to it. however im going to ask off if that's possible. i just wanna take the day off and laze around. not in the mood to do anything much also these few days. rented 8 titles from videoezy today. so far i've watched 3 and there's still so many left. i guess i just have to work harder. gotta book in later at lunchtime and bookout after the parade's rehearsal. kinda suckybookin in to do rehearsal and then off we go.

chatted online with jonathan just now. talked about things of the past and i felt how we have aged thinking about the contents we chatted. planning to start playing soccer regularly on every sundays. its a thing of the past we used to do but stopped due to army.

i got so many things i wanna buy during these 2 months. if only i had more money.

im gonna save as much as i can now and make my hols a gd one.

i got alot of things on my mind but im not writing it here. tink i gonna set up another blog just for my own privacy. something i can refer of what i've done and felt. dig it out after so long and maybe just laugh at how im feeling at that various point of time. tink im just gonna do that. actually after reading some of the past entries on this blog, i realised that i've come this far in this phrase of life and it just never stops. just like how i still felt for u from the day we were together 5yrs ago till the day we parted and onto this very moment, i still felt for u. we neednt be together but i still feel for u. im stubborn plz reprimand me, im sad at times plz console me, im lonely plz accompany me but my feelings for u are true till this very day.

i felt that i got alot of commitments now. i cant make another space for another girl in my life. that's the reason i ignored my gf recently. i cant make time for u anymore. things just doesnt seems it is. i dun feel gd when im with u. i cant forget the old one. forgive me for this one.

Protect ~ 2:34 am