Blogging has brought about many different types of feelings to each different individuals. as for me, the purpose is to write what's happening thruout my life journey till this very day. well words can be weapons to anyone but if it's affecting anyone in a way, i hope u understand the main purpose of blogging.

was reading my past entries and the memories just came flooding back. life backed then was so much colourful compared to now. When u get older u tend to prioritise certain aspects of what u wanna achieve . the road ahead is still filled with uncertainties and it cudnt come any better than now.

having a stage 2 evaluation next week which lasts from monday-thursday. its going to be a 4day outfield thingy and i just hate em. mozzies, sun and doing nothing for most of the time. we going to moveout at 2359 on monday nite to lck i supposed. i still haven shop for my outfield thingy i even forget to bring home the jungle hat Jegan passed to me.argh...i guess i have to make do with my jockey cap. gonna bring my ps2 to camp tmr! we going to play games and also watch dvds during our free time. im going to shift into the specialists bunk perhaps tmr or so. been bunking in with the men. booked out at 1700 on friday but it cud have been so much earlier. all thanks to mt line and the men doing their work slowly. we specs came down full force to do our part and even dirtied our hands fixing the necessary ldms on the vehicles. before we came down, their progress was quite slow. nazri was saying that we specs got this aura to make them work faster. hmm...i guess he was right...haha!

friends walked in and sometimes out of ur life. its nice to hear their gd being once in awhile. the problem is im missing alot of frends. army certainly has played some part in it. i cudnt hang out around with them cuz most of the time im in camp. i want to go out with them again!

i missed playing street soccer on sunday mornings. i missed poly life. i missed my life before ns. there's so many things that im missing. -stoning-

Protect ~ 3:36 am

I cudnt hope for a fresher start next week. its been an up-down events for the past two weeks.

had a stage one evaluation at lorong asrama for 2 SIR. i just cudnt believe it. woke up at 0445 and did our part only at around 3+ in the evening. it was for merely a 5mins thingy. after that we went back to camp. waited there from 8am-3pm doing nothing. mozzies were all around and i slept awhile in the open. that sums up my job scope for the day. im the vehicle commander and i only had a driver and a gunner in the rover. i do not haf to find a trench or watsoever. my job is simple. just sit in the rover and do patrolling. although it sounds simple, it can be mentally draining. so till ord, im always in a rover!

went to gym in camp, played soccer on field and there's going to be a match here in yishun this sunday at around 4pm. the atec team is going to play against an unknown team from outside. the cool part is that captain masir is playing and a few warrant officers is in the team too. im not sure whether i will be playing full game as i dun haf a fixed position in the team. basically they just deploy me anywhere from being a defender to a striker. after the training on the pitch my first sgt told me that i had poor first touches. cant be helped. i didnt play for a very long time on the pitch. hopefully we win this sun. and after the game im going home to relax before booking in at nite.

just ran another 10km today in the morning. ran 20km altogether this week.there's going to be more running next week and more gym sessions for me! the gym in camp is so so much better than outside. its that big and there's 2 punching bags. oooo...tried punching that time it feels so damn gd. next time if i need to let it out, i noe where to go. stage 2 evaluation is nearing and it will kickstart the busy period once again.cant wait for taiwan evaluation next yr man. slowly im beginning to love taiwan. i dunno why.

life just seems so much dull now. i dunno how to describe. its just so plain. some mates are going to ord soon and im affected by that. they are slowly counting down the days and its great to be part of it, someday. nothing beats that sleeping on ur bed at home.

Protect ~ 2:40 am

i just got so much to write now but having said that, i realised that my style of writing in the blog has deviated from its original purpose in the first place. it used to be a place where i poured all my feelings onto but now its has so called been "commercialized" due to ppl dropping in by here. i read my entries for since the early days of blogging and realised that i got so much freedom back then in blogging then now. im not saying that ppl shudnt read my blog but its an avenue for me to remind me of what i've been going thru and what im facing at the current moment.

anyways the spirit of blogging in me has faded little by little over time. im not sure of why but i guess the freedom of just unleashing my feelings onto this blog has nonetheless been less encouraging. for all i noe eversince i started blogging, i haf been single and is still now...haha...that means if im attached i might just close my blog? let's hope not, and there's also no one for me at the moment. come august 9, it will be 4 yrs being a singleton. you noe the feelings of loneliness....etc....i felt all that but it doesnt really bother me that much. recently i got this young girl liking me. she's that bold to declare that she missed me n even questioned me whether do i feel lonely at this age without a girl? my my ... young girls nowadays are quite daring. it came as no surprised to me that she smsed me first. i didnt even give her my number but she gotten it thru her own sources. well im not interested in young girls and its absolutely absurd if i have gotten into a relationship with her. but all i can firmly think is that she's just infatuated with me. that's all about it. it bothers me awhile.hmm... m i a guy who attracts just young girls? i hope not.... well fate isnt going to knock on my doors any soon now. gotta wait a while longer then

played billiard at occ and ate at macds. slacked there till 2am with shiming. talked alot about the young girl thingy and things to do when im at deathbed or so. we really got nothing to do. when im at the hospital bed, i request to be on 7th floor, 6th bed. i want the hospital to play me where is the love by black eyed peas and i want certain ppl to be there. my last meal will be from macds and i got a few last words to say to a particular girl at the moment. we were like acting as if we were really on the deathbed and we screenplayed the scenes tat might be happening. much been said, we were really that bored.

kinda planning to go on another overseas trip next yr after we ORD. australia, hong kong and redang is on our radar at the moment. speaking of overseas trip, i might be going to taiwan, australia and thailand for our overseas evaluation exercise. hopefully i get to go to australia before i ord but not thailand. i dun mind going to taiwan again and u wun get to see me around much during march-june. will be in taiwan for most of the period and it will be back-to-back exercise. if im not wrong we will be leaving for taiwan in march and then return 3 weeks later. get to rest for 2 weeks in sg and then fly back again there for another 2-3 weeks. its going to be hectic and the worse part? we dun even get extra overseas allowance. so whatever i get for my monthly allowance, i will haf to dig deep into that during overseas trip. sucks man!

mom has given me green light to get a car. dad doesnt mind. the problem is, NO MONEY! haha...last time mom didnt even agree to let me get myself a car...now she doesnt mind so much. if i were able to get an off peak car, it will be definitely cheaper. im still contemplating whether i shud get a bike license or save up for a car. if i were to get a bike license, the money will be used for that and maybe to get myself a new bike. if again i were to get a car, i wud haf to live simply and save most of my allowance i get every month. by the time i can purchase a car, it will haf to be during june next yr on my bday. AND that will be a perfect gift for myself. wooo....bike seems so much better now as i got friends in camp who rides and transport has never been a problem to them. its that easy to just zip in n out of camp! kinda lazy also to go down to the centre to take those lessons....been there done that for my car license. by the end of this month, i have 2 yrs of driving experience but it never really count. i guess i can count the number of times i drove after my test date.haha....its cruel for me. i noe . i just need a car. who's willing to sponsor me?

booking in on monday nite. its gonna be 5am soon...i just cant sleep. what's wrong with me? world cup's over and i still haf my nocturnal behaviour to cope with. can somebody switch me back on normal mode? gotta get a haircut either today or tmr. it seems that i got so still so much to write further on but i need to stop here. kind of a long entry today. did i mentioned i got 4 tortoises now? oh nvm...i will talk about it soon...ciaoz...they's so cute while sleeping...hehez

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