Sleepy day as per normal. Awakened in the morning by a phonecall from AIA courier service. They sending a courier personal down for my thumbprint with regards to a new policy. I signed two policies with them and im paying the premiums myself too.Speaking of independent huh? Im beginning to be one. You noe if shit happens, at least i left something for my family.
Slept the whole day today with nothing to do. Juz lazed around at home and went out at nite to northpoint for awhile. Just watched the longest yard. Adam Sandler was great man. i loved it when he starred in any movie titles. He's just so damn gd. jonathan gg to SOC(sch of commandos) next week. Initially he was posted to police for ns but he appealed as he didnt like dat. That's cool. was always known to be a chiongster and he still is now. ex captain of nyp dragon boat team. best unit cadet of yss npcc during my batch and also my best frend.
a mistake that i did in sec 2 was all it takes to extinguish the love that happened to nearly 3 yrs back. i realised i was too young then to make a mistake and she cant forget it. for all i did to make up for it, she still cant forget. a tribute to 9th august 2002, sunday after i played in the NSSL tournament. Kinda dedicated my first goal of my tournament deeply inside my heart to her but it didnt registered elsewhere. Its all over. dreams shattered and she will never licked back of what she's spit. sorry but gotta let this out. it has remained in me for so long. there was no one else that cud fit perfectly deep in me. the feelings of seeing u always wud make my heart throbbing and i swear that i cud die from heart attack back then. i dun haf this type of feelings for anybody else except u. its gonna be 3 yrs and hopefully i can forget this part of u and move on. many do not know of this except shiming who always listen to my shit. i remembered u said feeling hurt and i wasnt serious enuf about u. afterwhich i went on with another girl. and for this 3yrs i went on without 1. there was one which i was pretty interested in. it didnt matter to me anyway.i've found the answer of not revealing my feelings to her. i still have u in my heart. although the girl was as sweet and nice as ya, u still occupy a part in me if not that big. u still haf a significant presence in my life. all i cud ever wish is that we wud haf lasted together till now. but it never and cudnt become a reality. Ouch! Finally gotten it all out of me. Hope u come across this one day. Thanks.
