i suddenly get the feeling that i have a low self esteem. how shud i go about explaining it? or maybe i shudnt. it will only reaffirm my belief in having a low self esteem. dan has decided that we're going to tioman or something on the first week of sept before we all guys go into tekong. so there's work to be done later. im gonna find prices on the internet and stuffs. initally we planned to slack at phuket but due to budget constraints and ppl on different frequency, we dumped that plan in unison. after that me and ming planned to go to bkk to slack but it wasnt at all feasible as there were only two of us, kinda awkward, facing each other everyday during hols. was hoping for more ppl. and now its either tioman, langkawi or redang. will check out the prices and do some calculations for them. i hope its not too extravagant for us as we were only planning to slack on the beaches,play and eat.
got a flu now. its all thanks to the weather. it kept raining and i was wearing berms. i hate wearing jeans but i tink i gotta wear them to work tmr. its so damn cold and i dunno how i can just fall asleep at work just now. lolx. ming might be coming back to work on thurs as he still haven recover from his injuries. been going to work alone these days. no one to talk to on the way. its irony how i wanted him to go to work together and vice versa. alone at home now as everybody's out. ate nuggets with bread for dinner and the thoughts of waking up early again tmr definitely is not my type of thing. im working and i still haven enjoy the money that im earning.argh...what is life man?
my friends have told me that its hard to maintain a relationship when we guys serve ns and they were like telling me not to get one and just remain single for the time being. haha. i dun even haf a target much less dreaming of being with one. its normal now that i've been hearing their rantings and i wonder how long can they survive.
dan called after work to ask me to join him and ah lian at serangoon. damnit...its just so far for me.furthermore i dunno how to get there unless i flagged a cab.haha..i cudnt too..i am broke. i wud like very much to join them. been a long time too since i clubbed.maybe shud get them to go out clubbing someday. the last time we went clubbing were like few months ago. like a few weeks after our bkk trip. kinda like a gathering with ah lian and her friends. joey gotta go early also that nite. that nite with dan's dad rental car, i drove it to chinablack and then supper at serangoon. still remember ah lian's friend puked in the car. lolx. what a nite. looking forward to club once again with the same gang.
