Hai..i cant get to sleep so might as well do some blogging man. Hmm..im at dan's house, went for supper with him after parting with her at town. Today i met her at orchard mrt station and gosh i was late man..haha...wasnt really that late except that was later for around 10 minutes. Thank goodness she didnt mind at all..Well we went to marche for dinner and we talked alot there..she ate this codfish steak and i ate pizza. She fed me first before eating her share..haha..when she offered to me, i just opened my big mouth and it didnt taste that nice..hmmm...gave her part of my pizza and we didnt really eat much...wasnt that hungry i guessed..we drank snapple, hers being dunno wat apple and mine kiwi strawberry. actually i wanted to drink apple, but then since she chose to drink it, might as well chose others. then i mixed the drink and it taste marvellous. haha...neat...after eating when we were walking out of heeren, there was this guy who purposely pointed infront of her. she was talking to me at that point and it took her sometime to realise that it was her younger bro with his friends. his friends were looking at me quite strangely as i was a graduate from that school. they might somehow recognise me but who gifs a damn anyway...after that we went to taka as she wanted to eat ice-cream located at the basement. in the end she found her friend there and her friend gave a free voucher for the ice-cream. although she never used it, hmmm...it will still be a lil use in the future. after that we went to royal sporting house as i want to look wat's interesting to me....nothing much there and we proceed to kinokuniya bookstore. she said she wanna go mph but actually it was kinokuniya..so i suan her like madlah...saying...wah piangz..u jumbled out the names and stuffs...strolled around in the bookshop looking at book titles such as fengshui, tarrot cards and decorating homes....what the.....ahaha....the book about this home right, there was this pic in which the home was decorated so nice interiorly and on the outside it looks like a container improvised...its damn pretty for a home and its so cool....i dun tink its suitable to haf a house liddat in singapore. mayb australia wud be a better choice to build a similar kind there. she wanted to show me this book called the second memoir or something like it...but we just cudnt find it...in the end we exited the bookshop and slacked outside taka talking about our past relationships and stuffs...she pestered me about one important thing like how did i treat my ex in the past till the bf come and find me. i just cudnt tell her as its too personal..haha...but i told her about my other ex of what i did and stuffs...it was kinda heart-to-heart talk and she kept poking me, pinching and nearly wanna bite me...how violent can a girl be man...hai...she told me that she has shared all her secrets with me and that includes top secrets...not many of her friends noes about it....i wanted to share with her mine...but i just cudnt blurt it all out...something's holding me back...
Flashback at marche
on thurs i asked my frend to send me a mms of a picture with me and her taken in the mrt...i didnt haf that pic in my new hp as i forgotten to save it in my cpu that time before i parted with my old hp. and that bugger had to key in some nonsense text saying that i like her muchie...wah...tat was a killer man...and at marche...since she haven seen my new hp, obviously she wanted to explore the contents...i got a hunch that she was checking my mms folders at that time and voila...! i was right on the spot...she was on the msg that my frend sent. she saw the msg and i explained to her that shiming bullshited about it...haha...there was no reaction from her and i took it easy...phew...but seriously speaking, she does noe of what feelings i have for her..we didnt talk much about that message and it helps me saves my breath...haha...
Conclusion
I tink its better for me to forget about her and just move on...i tink she's just gonna remain as a buddy to me and that's that.nothing more....if u like a person, it doesnt mean u haf to be together right?im just happy to be with her company and more than happy to share my bits of problems with her..what more can i ask for?isnt that gd enuf?she's a nice friend to talk to and she dun mind listening to watever shit that i have. she also regards me as gd friends(which i tink and its true) with evidence that she told before lamenting how she wud like wanna end a conversation with that person shorted if she does not treat that person as a gd frend or wat. although she wud accommodate to her friends, but its just a one way conversation with the other half just talking to her...how true can it be? i dunno...mayb that's what she meant?hmm...
Fun or not fun?
its been a long time since i went out with her and it's the same feelings whenever i go out with her. she's just too nice...anyone can just haf fun with her...im glad that we kept in touch with each other although we missed each other's presence for almost 6 yrs...and now..we are back together!!i wish that we can just keep in contact for the years to come...and now im at dan's home....he's a faggot...he's sleeping and im here blogging away...im just so bored now...y???haha...dunno man...void of feelings(how i wish i can be one)....and now need a nap before going home in the morning...oh..its morning now...
