Ok im back here blogging. My laziness has taken over me and i could do nothing about it. Sorry if there's no latest developments about me. Well today i bought a windstruck vcd and it was absolutely smashing. It gave me the will to blog once again. The power of a movie...phewww...
Windstruck
i heard it was a nice movie with the my sassy girl actress in it. Going with my intuition, i decided to buy the vcd as i've missed it on the big screen. it was very touching and somehow its related to my sassy girl. I tink this is the earlier story of the my sassy girl. It definitely reached out to my heart and i tot i was feelingless till today. Im just feeling the misery and sadness of the actress and goodness...how cud i say all these?I shud be studying now as i got two papers tmr, somehow i just had no mood for the papers..i just cant come out with sentences now...dunno y and my mind's all blank. Movies can always depict or draw out a fairytale story but in reality..does it happen?sometimes i just hate movies..they always leave an impression in ppl that they have hope and stuffs but itsnt that harming them instead of giving them more hope? it gifs ppl false hope and everytime they say even a false hope is better than no hope at all...wat type of sentence with meaning is that?i have to push myself more for the paper tmr and i gotta study, hit the notes and hopefully the words etched in my brain for tmr...but everytime the words are discarded even before i sat for the paper...this is so frustrating...the show definitely perked me up now and i just seems to have this false hope in me now..haha...how irony!? miah miah!!!my emo kaki....guessed ur sleeping right now...but hopefully after my papers we'll meet up this weekend ya?this semester just seems so bland...other half of my class has gone on attachment and left with the other half...it just didnt seem right and balanced to me....even with the new bunch of ppl around me, they just dun fit in into the environment...im so used to the ppl around with for the 2yrs...damn it...last semester and i gotta clear it well...also im selected for NP's IVP Squash Team. We'll be playing at NUS and we have nyp,nus and smu in our grp...for all i noe NUS is the best team and dunno much about smu...but nyp is something like us...we got bad players more than gd players...one good example of bad players is me!!!im rather excited to be playing for NP this yr. It cud be that this is my last yr participating in such competitions and there's so much at stake...i want to get the medals with my own achievements and efforts. i also want to feel the atmosphere of the competition similar to my pri and sec school competitions...i've represented my school for every level of instituition since pri and im not going to let this bypass me. I just thrived on these competitions...its getting tougher but its worth it...i will be sleeping late tonite and i dunno what's wrong with my tagboard...sigh...life is colourful afterall and i just cudnt grasp it enough...its still a dull picture to me and hopefully someday someone will inject more colours into it.its a problem.
My wishlist for this yr now is to own a car...my parents wanted to get me one but they cant afford the new ones..so might haf to settle for the 2nd hand ones...its ok with me...but the decision lies with my father...if he says no, then its a no-no and i dun mind. Maintaining a car in Singapore is very expensive and it just sucks...but i hope if its within his budget mayb can get me a nissan march to start with or suzuki swift..those old ones...just to hone on my driving skills and over with the P plate...that's it...gotta hit my notes...

Protect ~ 1:02 am

A boring Wednesday afternoon. Im still feeling a lil bit sleepy...guess im gonna sleep again later...wat a day to spend the whole afternoon sleeping. Had squash training yesterday and coach francis really trained me and i learnt alot from him. Like how to prepare yourself for the next ball and stuffs...he taught me things that i have never learnt before and he really knows what's ur weaknesses are. My thighs ached while training with him yesterday...and he knows too...kns...he asked me to push myself more now rather than the IVP tournament coz it'll be too late by then..that's a hint that im in the school team again liao..haha..then went to westmall with shiming to slack at coffeebean after training.sat there for awhile coz we reached there at around 10+ and it was going to close in about half an hour later..then on the way home talked about alot of things sia...crap...by the time i reached home...i had split headaches....it was killing me man....didnt eat much and went to sleep early. then this morning watched the liverpool game and PON school as i was super tired...my thighs are not giving in to me...still haf tmr's training to endure...sianz...
the funniest thing that ever happened to me today was i had a funny dream. Well it involves me with a girl name Axxxxx.she is my frendlah. well in the dreams i met her somewhere....mayb that place doesnt even exist in this world...she was wearing a white top with blue skirt and me i tink i just somehow ended up meeting her. she was crying when i met her and its like she told me that she missed her ex-bf. hearing this i consoled her. she was carrying a bag and also a camera...which can turned into digital,camcorder and dunno what shit. its a 3-in-1 camera lah...she passed me the camera and both of us were walking to a supermarket together...of all places...! inside there, she taught me how to use the camera by using the digital camera only...the camera was kinda cool, when u pressed a button followed by another, it will transform into a digital camera..haha...so Axxxxx asked me to take some photos of her. i dutifully took her pictures and suddenly she came up to me and looked deep into my eyes..i was totally enchanted by that and my heart was beating furiously. nothing happened and so we went to this house? there was a party or celebration and both of us blended quite well into the atmosphere interacting with the ppl in the dream..and again suddenly we were close together,i got this feeling that she liked me and i also liked her...she was facing and me out of the sudden i decided to make the killing move.i hold her waist and looked into her eyes.then slowly i took her hands and told her that i liked her alot...i didnt noe that i was in for another shock...she told me that she just regards me as a close frend..the whole world came crashing down on me.i was feeling emo at that time..and she mingled with the crowd again leaving me vulnerable...then this time she asked me to use the camera again...i pressed the button wrongly and i dunno what combination that came out...haha...i can see that she was pissed with me.i was feeling so kancheong..haha...crap...i was feeling so sad u see....then out of nowhere..my handphone rang...what the fuck man...?tot i can reverse the situation in the dream...then the blardy hp rang...kns...haha...so that was my dream...its totally weird...but the Axxxxx i saw in the dream was so chio than in real life....sibei chio....*Drooling*...ahaha...it might be because i've been seeing her for the past two days at atrium in school...well gotta relax now....tink im going to slp...haha..

Protect ~ 3:28 pm