I have decided that she will be my gd frend for now. Im not going to confess my feelings to her till im 19. Let me have plenty of time to think. Mayb that's how she treats her gd frends. Yesterday met her at jurong east coz she was two trains behind me. So might as well wait for. She was feeling very tired yesterday and she lied on my shoulder for awhile while waiting for the train. Im kinda used to it. Also its normal for frendz to lie on my shoulder coz even Jane got lie on my shoulder tat time when went out with jane they all during ktv..so its NORMAL..thx Jane for helping my sort out my feelings. i wudnt haf tink about it if u didnt lean on my shoulder. went to the doc at nite yesterday because i felt worse after waking up from my evening sleep. told my mom that i wanted to see doctor and she asked me quickly to see as it was 8+. There wasnt many ppl there and it took very fast to see the doc. Doctor gave me medicines for fever, throat infection, antibiotics and cough syrup. the cough syrup is useless as everytime i will never consume it...coz its syrup..lazy wanna take the stupid spoon and gulp it down my throat. well i just woke up and ate my breakfast...took my medicine and gonna sleep again. Felt even worse today. body's hot and my lips were super dry,even my breath is hot...its been a long time since im sick like this. and usually it takes days for me to recuperate..hopefully im fine by next monday. i will try no to tink about her that much since i wanna regard her as a gd frend. but the problem is can i? and also my frendz will be asking like, "she how?got ask her anot?" and that will just destroy what i wanna achieve. how i wish that they can keep quiet and let me haf a peaceful mind. gonna bug my parents for car once i passed the license..haha...dun care...dad kept asking me when is my TP and i told him i haven booked yet...dun care...bug them till i get what i want...firstly im the youngest and secondly it will be a family car...so i have every reasons to be driving one..wahaha...ok enuf of it..time to lie on bed

Protect ~ 10:46 am