Today!
Well i woke up at around 11+ today suprisingly early coz i went clubbin the nite before...and slept at around 4+? Went online and chatted with miah for awhile...then decided to go to orchard to play pool there at lucky plaza at around 2.45pm. We played till around 5 and then ate at this foodcourt beside mambo. I ate laksa there and miah ate the prawn mee...then we walked down to ps but in between bought ice-cream sold at the roadside and slacked outside heeren for awhile...coz we were eating ice-cream. Messaged her and she was duno where..tink was playing pool with her frendz after her ktv session...oh ya...went to orchard/somerset with her coz we were going the same way...met her at khatib and then ciaoz...then at ps, me and miah began to talk some serious business...miah was like advising me wat to do and so..telling me about the pros and cons..yea...thx miah for everything..although it boils down to me only...but i wasnt having much confidence for myself...then miah suggested that i met her for awhile before her dinner just to confess my feelings to her..as she was eating dinner there with her younger sister and her friend...hai...her frend drove anyway...so kinda felt dulan abit there...i mean when u haf vehicle its like there's
FREEDOM?...sianz man....but before that we slacked at bk and talk talk talk...talk about this issue etc...well she called me at bk but asked miah to pick up the call as i was feeling damn sianz...really felt like shit...dun feel like talking to her...yea...that type of feelings..ok then she met me...and i didnt tell her how i felt..kinda felt shitty after that too....and she was asking me..y wanna meet me?i just dun care...hai...after that played arcade, played the sega rally..haha...damn fun...super fun...before that miah ate at yoshinoya...i didnt eat..no appetite at all....then also talked somemore about this stuff..hai...its like neverending..its always the same old thing again...i felt that mayb i shud forget the whole thing including her..?i want to be freed of this problem and then be myself all over again..i might be doing this...
Alot of ppl have been telling me that i stand a chance being with her but i just dun tink so...its lyke i always doubt myself...and giving myself more problems...hai....i cant stop tinking...my brain's just cant rest...this thing can lead to another..that type of thing..yea...so wat shud i say?mayb i can try not smsing her or call her for this whole week and see how thing goes?only if she sms me then i wud be like replying her question only...then shiming was saying that i was being unfair to her...and he also said that ...its always unfair in this world...after playing arcade went to coffeeshop with shiming near our house and talked for awhile...kinda felt low today...super low..went home and now blogging...
SAT
had the bazaar in school and it was the last day..so im not going to emphasize much on that...reached home at around 6+ and then went out again at 8.30pm. went to 7-11 near my house to buy sandwich for her coz she didnt eat much and she was feeling hungry...took cab to pick her up near her place and went to zouk...we planned to go clubbing today...so met up with ivan, derek, yuhui,dan, yuhui's frendz and dan's frends. the queue was blardy long and i was sianz on the spot...freak man...but managed to go inlah...entrance was free and drinks were free too...haha...so just slacked there for awhile. then went to the dancefloor at phuture and it totally sucks....house music was like so slow...damn...she didnt like the music and neither did i...she grabbed me by my arm yesterday the whole time and its like ppl will think that we were a couple...seriously..so yesterday she was my part time gf...the after awhile...we had enuf and me,ivan and her went to chinablack..joined the queue with ivan's frendz. so we jumped queue and managed to get in pretty fast...haha...shiok...there the music was better and danced with her throughout the nite. there sometimes she wud put both her hands lying on my shoulder as if slow dance...and me put my hands on her waist lah..slow dance for awhile...haha...then normal dance dance...and she always beat my chest...hai...what's her problem man? she beat me, so i tickled and poke her...then around 1+ we went out of chinablack and slacked at macdonalds..sat there and waited for my frendz from zouk to arrive. tot can send her home but she went with another grp of frendz for supper...sucksman...i dun like frenz leaving halfway...yea...when my friends arrived..kinda signalled to her that my frendz are here..and she can meet her frendslah...i kinda pissedlah...but what can i do?tell her not to meet her frendz and spent time with me? she also got massaged my shoulder coz she owed me...and she did a gd joblah...not bad..next time can ask her massaged for me leh...her nails got scratched my hand...so suay man...damn...now its ok already...after she went off..i was still at mac with derek and dan...waiting for ivan to come out then took cab home..reached home around 3+ and slept around 4...was so blardy tired and stuffs...coz firstly i had no enough sleep, secondly been busy with the preparations for the bazaar and thirdly body's aching coz went to gym on monday...so that was wat happened on sat nite....i dun tink i wanna talk more about it...just keep it to myself ....
why?
well my near-vomitting sickness is back again...felt like puking every now and then...there's something wrong with me..well it happened that time but was ok after awhile...and now tis back again this week..i shall not tie this up with a problem or wat coz i seriously dunno....kinda felt that there's a difference in me....its just no longer me..never experienced this since the day i was born...but now..its like so normal to me!!wat in the world is happening!!??im just so tired and sick of what im doing....y? y? y? y am i behaving this way? Sheesh....i try not to contact her again...
