Its still raining, even at night! Rained the whole day and it was so boring. Cant do much when it rains man...Luckily i got no school tmr...but got driving lesson in the morning at 10.25am and then mayb gonna play pool or gonna go home..?another alternative wud be going to SP to meet weili there...but i dunno now leh..haha...i was feeling sleepy today andd slept when i reached home...didnt noe i was that tired afterall.
I think the phrase of life that im going thru now is the toughest ever thrown to me. Suffered emotionally but not physically...on the surface it may seems alright but there's alot of unfounded worries brewing inside me. It's like i dun haf any directions in life now...what am i going to do next? or what shud i do next? i have decided that i wanna pursue my studies in australia after my ns, probably gonna go RMIT study there for just a yr...so its like cheap and also fast...been tinking about gaining pr status there too...if only i can work there...i like the pace of life there...not too fast...relax...its still raining....haiz...its so boring nowadays...im always restless, wanting to do something to keep myself busy...cant get myself to rest at home or wat...its always fix on going outside and doing something...as for now...i just need another gd sleep...if possible to forget about all these issues.....life wud seems so simple without all these i tink...
well today had the urge just to sms her to confess about my feelings...saying everything out...but its like so unsincere..so shelved the idea and keep on delaying....mayb not gonna tell at all...who noes..? well relationship...i tink it sucks?haha...no offence to ppl out there but yea..i tink it sucks...although i've been thru a couple of it, i was naive then. i dunno if the other half can accomodate to my capacity of energy and life...its like when u like someone...u will try to do things with them...not saying im selfish but do anyone haf ever think WAT REALLY IS LOVE? i tink there's an endless opinion to it....love...i hate it....its so confusing...anyway always put on a smile for what u haf...coz ur fortunate...not others can understand it...much less me..who's so skeptical about it now...love and turn into enmity between friends and others...frustrating to others...i noe...let's skip this shit now...time for me to sleep...
