Felt abit better today. Went to school to return the stocks to this computer guy. Lost 11 items which was quite shocking. Kinda sucks about that..but my mind's wasnt on that anyway. Went to ktv at partyworld today with jane, melo, lynette, miah and amanda. Then daniel and his frend joined us for awhile. After that ate at Thai express. The world's crashing down on me now. I can do nothing about it. Im just so helpless, dunno what to do, feeling lost and terrified. Terrified of losing a frend. Haf been tinking of taking up bike license but my mom wudnt allow me to do so. But i really want to take bike, hoping that i buang or wat, then it wud just solve all the problems that i had. Found out that i've been feeling miserable and its just not getting any better although i put on a brave front. I might be smiling and stuffs...even to the extent of making ppl smile but me myself, liked to bottle up my feelings. I might not be sharing my problems anymore as its mine and i tink i can handle it on my own. I think that no matter how busy i am, the problem just surfaced as if it's there for life, registered! life kinda been on a down for the past few days and i tink it will continue going downhill till to the extend that i might just breakdown one day and then kaPOM! Everyone has problems and i dun tink i want to bother them anymore. i dun want sympathy. i dun want anything. what i want is to be freed. Freed of all the troubles that im having. Things were looking fine but now its getting out of control. shud blame myself...i brought about this myself. i've been lacking of sleep for these days and the energy that is remaining is just so gonna be gone. i must rest at home for these following days. Mayb i also dun want to on my hp. Dun want ppl to disturb me. let me be alone in peace. im so weak. a pathetic weakling. 2004....i wud want to forget completely. a yr of problems and dramas. gonna sleep.

Protect ~ 1:07 am