well its gonna be two complete days in an hour's time without seeing her. i missed her alot....guessed for this time, i've fallen in love in her wholeheartedly. i wonder what's she's thinking. the other half of the answer is with her...although i have never asked her about our relationship...so we assumed that we are really close friends. Closest friend that i think for a guy and girl can be. Maybe this is my first and kinda blockheaded by it. to confess my love to her i tink is similar to suicidal. i also cant concentrate much on my studies...that is alarming!!!never haf i felt this before for the past yrs..i noe its just me but the thing is that i need to solve this asap. when i met shiming just now, he can see the sian look on my face...i didnt realise that till he told me...was really happy to go out with her for the past three days..i dun mind spending my last days with ppl like her who cud just lit up my dark days and stuffs..<---abit emo man...
oh ya...im supposed to be visiting the doc...but kept procrastinatin...tmr before going to school go and see the doc near my house...asked him wat im suffering from man...anyway there's this song by Craig David...You don't miss your water till the well runs dry....i like the song alot...kinda summed up what im feeling and experiencing now...something like it...or near it...
tmr's a brand new day!i hope it turns out well!!!i really do...coz i dun want to feel like this everyday...i haf deviated from my normal life..im just not myself these days...even holding a pen just now is not an easy feat for me. i was like trembling...lolx...farnee man...anyway now its ok...sucky man...im such a pessimist....i always like to think of the worst rather than the good ones...
after the previous relationship, i begin to think that there's no joy in being together with girls as couple...im not tryin to say that im a gay...which im not btw...its like i gaf my all to every relationship and in the end we still end up breaking.OUCH! its like ur starting another relationship and still haf the same ending...at least that applies to me....never say i love u if u dun mean it and never say i miss u if u really dun haf that feelings..it just leads to nowhere...
- empty heart -

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