February is here!!!wohoo....im waiting for this stupid 8am semester to end!!! Let's see what i did today? well woke up at 11am and went to eunos. At eunos kena nagged nagged and nagged....haiz...endless nagging....felt like wanna say...."eh, i had enuf of this shit. Cant i do my own ways?"haha... then i went home around 7pm....on the way home, i experienced headache, shoulder ache and stuffs....im a weak person..haha...i think its because i went jogging that nite then never really warmed up properly....the muscleache on my thigh has gone. It feels so gd....oh my....im determined to clock below 11 for my 2.4km. just take it slowlyman.....anyway there's no school tmr but im going back to school to play badminton in the afternoon and then squash training in the evening. So kinda spent the whole day there.amazing right?haha...she's sick today...kinda worried for her man....but what can i do?just tell her to do this and that....kinda felt that im so useless....if only....IF ONLY....i can help her...she told me yesterday that her friends are hinting to her that one her classmates liked her....a guy junior one yr...then its like i told her to gif that guy a chance lah....(acting that i didnt like her)...and telling her so what the guy is younger than her....also she told me that both of them got their fashion sense right together....so its like i told her that surely they will get along well...(grindin my words at that part)....i sounded happy for her..(which i acted again)...nowadays she kept asking me whether i got call the sp gal(which is her)...and i didnt tell her much...haha....how i wish i was sick...super sick...and mayb bloody sick?im so fed up with myself...always avoiding the issues about her that i liked her...jason mraz-you and i both.....is a super nice song...
i dunno should i tell her or just leave it to fate....gif her time to decide about her classamate....who noes they went together soon...i dunno...but i just hope that she's happy with her decision...as a frend i dun want to see her unhappy. she also told me that im one of her few frendz that she bothered to talk on the phone for sometime...coz others who called her...she would like talked shortly with them....she will only talked to those whom she has respect for...like me?haha...dohz...i was her primary school frend...hence i was granted that special priviledge....wahaha...crap! nolah...its just that i tink we got alot to talk together and etc. yesterday when she told me that her classmate was so called jioing her...i was kinda worried....hhaha...worried that i will lose to that guy if i never do anything fast? but i tink better let fate decides coz i dun want to rush the whole thing...let's take things slowly yea?mayb after yesterday, i realise that she's really quite important to me...but as a frend..i shud be extremely happy for her...but i sort of worried...mayb im jealous or wat?i've grown within her company...hope to be with her soon....
i've said this to daniel...and i will say it again....she will be my last girl that i will jio(if i put enuf effort) and if i never get to be with her....tat will be the final straw.i ain't going to court other girls again....im just kinda frustrated with myself for this type of thing and mayb just let me be free from relationship stuffs...to put it in exact words...Im tired of these courtship thingy...i will just let go....daniel asked me, "faizal, do u believe in true love?" and i replied, "daniel, true love doesnt exists for me till i experience it for myself"...and the story goes....
