My my my Oh my! I have been taking a leave from bloggin since last yr!!! Time flies soooo fast....perhaps i just didnt have time to blog. Pardon to those who have been here to see updated news and happenings. Well this semester, i haf a sucky timetable and it just cant get any better....classes at 8....three hours break on monday and on some fridays...just realise that if i really want to stand a fair chance to be part of the np squash team, i gotta run less than 11minutes, gotta do this and that! anyway i will try my very best to be in the school team like last yr...although i didnt put in alot of efforts for the last yr team, but this yr, i will definitely put in efforts and i want to know my real ranking in NP for squash....isnt that wonderful if ur ranked top 5 in the school for squash....the feelin....will be marvellous...just simply cant put it into words furthermore with my own efforts and hardwork....now im determined to do it after talking to the school captain,Gary, who's very confident of bringin NP to the top of all polys' . i tink i haf a lot of respect for him and he's a nice guy afterall...just gotta noe him better....
and there's also another thing that's puzzling me...i just dunno if i like her or wat...i dun haf guts to meet her for three occasions...how i wish i can meet her...but something's holding me back....i really dunnoleh...its just me or wat?i guessed its me....im so contradictive...wth....i just cant figure out y i still dun want to see her...i kept telling myself that its not the right time and etc....in fact...i dunno if im abled to face myself...gosh...i also dunno if she liked me...tat doesnt matter...i can only speculate about her feelings, i got a strong feeling that she also like me.....well...its just speculation and mayb wishful tinking on my part. mayb part of the reasons that i dun want to meet her is dat im not ready for another bgr thingy....i just lost so so so so much confidence since my last one....but i tink its better to remain as frendz...but the other side of me wants to be with her....its just sooooo sucky. i dunno, frendz tink that i was trying to play-hard-to-get but its just that they didnt really noe me well....now if i want to do things, i will put in effort in it. but if i dun gif it a serious thought....i may even ditch the thinking...i dun even noe if i got drop any hints to her...haiz...shit i got blaw tut tmr...haiz...so sian...8am....hope to clear this cloudy mind of mine....
