Actually i woke up at 6.00am today but i was too tired and so sleepy that i slept back till 8am....didnt go for my blaw tut but went for my quality management tut instead. Today's weather was a very cold one.i wore my jacket from mrt and all the way to school-bbdc-home. We end at ard 11 today coz we did the tutorial questions very fast and went to eat at canteen 2. By then it was raining heavily. What a nice day to sleep right? anyway went to bbdc with derek in a cab. The taxi driver was a chiongster man....he cut there cut here macam he got no life....as if he was invinsible...basket...me and derek was feeling for our safety even if he dun want his...haha...then my driving practical, i nearly chiong the red light while doing right turn. i didnt see the light but i followed the car infront of me...luckily my instructor braked for me...or else im gone for gd....with vehicles on the right smashing thru my seat. i visualise it there but then wasnt that serious...now then i thought it over....wah seh...super serious ah?haha....after that i got 10 minutes break and so i went for my driving simulator. Its actually a auto car simulator...the instructor was super corny. i was like for about few seconds...then he had the other two students to suggest that dinner was on me for today...lol...damn farnee....the simulator was another joke...i crashed into the rear end of a car and that was so tickling. somemore can restart...lolx...i rather play this one than daytona sia....coz this one fun...only that u haf to follow the directions given by the computer...anyway the drama serials that i have been watching was the last for today...so sad...no more nice dramas for me to watch liao..sianz man...haiz...its touching and so full of feelings...
about her
well we chatted for awhile today. then its like today she kept asking me i never call that the girl i liked meh? what if the girl noes that im talking to her instead of the sp girl whom i "liked"? i completely ignored these questions of hers and try to divert to another topic...i just feel that its so bad to deceive her like this.i dunno which direction im heading to. i want to see if i can not contact her tomoro....i will be having a hectic day tmr lasting till the nite outside so mayb that can take her off my mind...but i wonder...can i?haiz...i just hope that i can try not to contact her tmr and check my feelings whether i really can make it or wat?wat do i mean by making it?to see whether i miss her or wat?but even if i miss her, we haf not seen each other for the past 6 yrs. and she just told me that we haf actually known each other for 10 yrs to be exact this yr. i AWED in amazement. frankly speakin...its a very long time considering we known each other durin p4 and till now....another thing that i wanna highlight is that we haven been contacting each other for the past 6 yrs except last yr...on november 15..when i found her profile on friendster. Initially i tot friendster was crap but then it has brought our path together again. I've forgotten which frend of mine asked me to sign up for friendster but i felt really grateful to that person.THANKS! so after november 15...we talked but not so often like now...i also duno y...im gonna dream of wat i'm going to do in future.....Au revoir!

Protect ~ 12:26 am

Im back here again..Maybe im just so bored. anyway the weather was so nice today...rained and rained....lessons were no fun either....luckily there's only 4hours of lessons tmr...its gonna be great...got driving practicals at 12.55pm and mayb im going to gym or wat tmr...wanna do some exercise man...feel that im slacking around too much liao....haiz...my journey home just now wasnt that norm too....took 74 till amk there...then waited for another bus...but the interval was so long that i took a cab home...coz it was pouring!!!i dun want to like caught in between the rain. but outside the school bustop, saw alicia and her bf...guessed she didnt see me, or else sure kena disturb by me one :p
today me and her had less contact....and like i felt weird coz i never listened to her voice? wat's happening to me?y am i turning into this way...?y? i must confessed that i terribly missed her....although i have the chance to see her...kept telling my frendz that i will see her soon.....but how soon will it be?i dun want to be a procrastinator. haiz....it seems that i got alot of thinking to do this week....a week of thinking....days of puzzled, hours of darkness, minutes of fickleness, seconds of flashbacks...will i be able to face my feelings soon?god knows....

Protect ~ 12:19 am

My my my Oh my! I have been taking a leave from bloggin since last yr!!! Time flies soooo fast....perhaps i just didnt have time to blog. Pardon to those who have been here to see updated news and happenings. Well this semester, i haf a sucky timetable and it just cant get any better....classes at 8....three hours break on monday and on some fridays...just realise that if i really want to stand a fair chance to be part of the np squash team, i gotta run less than 11minutes, gotta do this and that! anyway i will try my very best to be in the school team like last yr...although i didnt put in alot of efforts for the last yr team, but this yr, i will definitely put in efforts and i want to know my real ranking in NP for squash....isnt that wonderful if ur ranked top 5 in the school for squash....the feelin....will be marvellous...just simply cant put it into words furthermore with my own efforts and hardwork....now im determined to do it after talking to the school captain,Gary, who's very confident of bringin NP to the top of all polys' . i tink i haf a lot of respect for him and he's a nice guy afterall...just gotta noe him better....
and there's also another thing that's puzzling me...i just dunno if i like her or wat...i dun haf guts to meet her for three occasions...how i wish i can meet her...but something's holding me back....i really dunnoleh...its just me or wat?i guessed its me....im so contradictive...wth....i just cant figure out y i still dun want to see her...i kept telling myself that its not the right time and etc....in fact...i dunno if im abled to face myself...gosh...i also dunno if she liked me...tat doesnt matter...i can only speculate about her feelings, i got a strong feeling that she also like me.....well...its just speculation and mayb wishful tinking on my part. mayb part of the reasons that i dun want to meet her is dat im not ready for another bgr thingy....i just lost so so so so much confidence since my last one....but i tink its better to remain as frendz...but the other side of me wants to be with her....its just sooooo sucky. i dunno, frendz tink that i was trying to play-hard-to-get but its just that they didnt really noe me well....now if i want to do things, i will put in effort in it. but if i dun gif it a serious thought....i may even ditch the thinking...i dun even noe if i got drop any hints to her...haiz...shit i got blaw tut tmr...haiz...so sian...8am....hope to clear this cloudy mind of mine....

Protect ~ 12:27 am